Deadly Loneliness
I waited around in anxiety, Fear now a regular intruder for me I sat next to my daughter in the rehab facility Wondering again, lost in thought Drugs had taken her away My wistful mind thought far behind Since there was nothing left in my future I suppose my mind could only visualize the past (At home, the next day) I had recognized the symptoms in the beginning But I felt there was still a chance I had faith in my daughter She could stop her addiction I knew it in my heart But my actions were late The fault all mine I pleaded to myself So I could escape this misery I was alone in life No word for it I guess When you don't have a husband and lost a child I feel alone Now, more than ever Now, more than the days wishing for company I step towards the fan in the room Begging my mind not to go this far But I have nothing more left No more pain to fight No more sorrow left to fill this void I kick the chair, my head in a noose I pray one last time To be released But my mind shuts d