Deadly Loneliness

 I waited around in anxiety,

Fear now a regular intruder for me

I sat next to my daughter in the rehab facility

Wondering again, lost in thought

Drugs had taken her away 

My wistful mind thought far behind

Since there was nothing left in my future

I suppose my mind could only visualize the past

(At home, the next day)

I had recognized the symptoms in the beginning

But I felt there was still a chance

I had faith in my daughter

She could stop her addiction

I knew it in my heart

But my actions were late

The fault all mine

I pleaded to myself

So I could escape this misery 

I was alone in life

No word for it I guess 

When you don't have a husband and lost a child

I feel alone

Now, more than ever

Now, more than the days wishing for company 

I step towards the fan in the room

Begging my mind not to go this far

But I have nothing more left

No more pain to fight

No more sorrow left to fill this void

I kick the chair, my head in a noose

I pray one last time

To be released

But my mind shuts down

A black shawl on me

I say goodbye one last time

Happily.