My Mind- When I Think Too Much

 To me, I was a pawn

A mere rookie in a game of chess

A game that defined my life

I spent my days searching

Looking around faithfully for a way to stop my misery

I looked around and I saw people unknown to me

People who smiled at me, hiding hatred

They looked at me with a glint in their eye,

A secret waiting to stop its secrecy

People tell me to send pictures of my new life

I have forgotten my own country now,

Jumbled up in this whole new life

I walk past a lonely road

Drugs littered on the floor

I feel I live in an exile

In a world I decided I would never betroth

I have often thought of moving back

But it's a habit now,

My new identity.

I cannot start a new life again

It's too late to think twice

I have already chosen the path

A path that leads to a valley

A valley of drugs and drinks

A valley of money

A valley of education and health for everybody

But in the back of my mind I always feel 

Should I have not thought this far

And chosen to walk in my own valley,

It had poverty and very less money 

I completely agree

But now that I am here

I tell everybody

I should not have come here

But the fact stays

I feel more at home here than anybody