A Doubtful Mind

 I stared around me in wonder,

A ghostly world it was to many

For many- a dream come true

For me a question always to wonder

A thought to ponder

The New World it was called by many,

I was here now 

And my own satire caught up with me 

I stared in relentless awe

At the wondrous city this was

A true worshipper I was to this place

But more I thought the more I questioned

My impulsive decision to take this path

I spent many evenings looking at the various people around me

They were so different and so many

A questionable decision I might say

But a decision nevertheless

 I walked around the open streets searching for somebody like me 

I walked around in despair

As I saw the melting pot around me 

My job was good

Education too,

Then why I wondered

Was I thinking too much

It was just a culture I had left behind

It was just my family I had left behind

I boarded the first flight back

Before I could think too much

In an everlasting attempt to hold the future

I had thrown away all my past